Lost

His blue eyes confound me. His chiseled features beg to have my hand run across them. His height makes me reach to the heavens to be with him...
and he smiles...
I fall...
Into dark depths of terror as my heart races. Into loneliness as my fingers slip from his grasp. Into despair knowing he can reach me but doesn't want to try...
and he looks away...
I sigh...
The beautiful thoughts that swarm my mind. The memories of our happy times. The love that grew only to be crushed...
and he deceives...
I run...
To a place to be with my thoughts. To wherever happiness can be found. To the future where the pain will be gone...
and he knows...
I climb...
Up the steps of impossibility reaching for what I want. Up in the world making my life more secure. Up through the clouds in thought to find my strength to keep moving...
and he smiles...
I've lost...