So 3 weeks after our first "I love you"s we had an argument. We still exchange another "I love you" then the next day I ask him if he "was already getting tired of me?" "Do you not want to be around me anymore" and he answers "I don't know yet"
I've been falling to pieces and just want to sit down and talk with him but I want to give him space first. Maybe I've been too needy and demanding of his time...
I want more than anything for this to work... As one of my closest friends said to me "I've never seen you love anyone the way you love him"
It's rough when I don't chat with him all the time like usual. I just want to hear his voice, feel his arms around me, feel like he wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him.
At the same time I'm trying to strengthen myself for what may come to be. I know I'll make it through anything, stronger than before, if I only keep my head up.
I need to focus on me. It's time for that. I need me. I have too much going for me, with or without him.
I'm amazing, if he fails to see that and leaves me than it's his loss, and a huge loss at that. I'm what he needs, whether he sees it now or not.
Ugh, here goes another rainy day. I'm going to go try and put some sunshine in it!!!
Monday, September 30, 2013
Losing his love
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