Broke and sober

Sometimes I just want to pick up a bottle of alcohol while in the grocery store, purchase it, then take it home and drink it.
I know I can't though.
I miss the fun, no matter how superficial, that it brought to me when I was bored or feeling down. It always made me feel happier, I didn't care that it was only temporary.
One of the only things that makes me happy in its absence is shopping, but being the bread winner and only employed/money making person in this household that happiness is also hindered.
I'm bored and poor. I can barely take it anymore... when will things ever get better and go my way, just a little?
When do I get to feel happy and satisfied with any part of my life again? I've had it before, just wish I could've hung on!
Ugh...
"things will get better, I promise. You just have to give it time." (Quoting myself) "don't give up, you're almost there."